Sometimes we don't understand

A friend of mine Jessica sent me an email a week or so ago asking me to pray for this sweet lady, Mrs. Stephanie Silcox Howell, she was battling cancer. It had come back with a force, and for her and her family I was just really believing God for a miracle. She was married and had 3 small children, one was a little girl Emmy's age, her name is Emma. I was constantly looking at her site reading up to date blogs from her sister Deliska. Emmy and I had been praying every night together for this precious woman and her family, infact so much that when I told Emmy last night, lets pray for Mrs. Stephanie, she said mom she is still sick?? I said yes honey, she said but we have been praying for her..I had to explain that sometimes God's will is not ours, and that just in case she was still ill we needed to continue to pray. This morning I checked her site and became super emotional as her sister wrote in and it was just so sad. I was just imagining being in Deliska's situation and having to watch as your sister's body is slowly fading, even though her spirit is still fighting. I had read where Deliska reminded her sister of the things she had promised her she would do for her once she had passed, and one of them was as simple as promising Stephanie that she would buy little Emma a raincoat as she is going to Pre K this year. I just sobbed as I read that...thinking of how Stephanie must feel to know that she won't be able to see that day come. My heart breaks for this sweet lady and her precious children.
I checked the blog around 2pm and found out that Stephanie had gone to be with Jesus around noon today. I just sat at my computer still and quiet and then began to pray..
Check out her site, and please pray for her family..
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/stephaniesilcoxhowell