Emmy Kate's 1st Day of School

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Well it all started yesterday, when I realized that it was my last day to hang out during the week with my daughter before she began preschool. We spent the morning at the pool playing and then ran a few errands and of course had to stop for a RED ICEE..We then came home, cuddled on the couch and read books. I didn't put her to bed until about 7:45ish, and as I lay with her as she fell asleep I looked at her sweet little face and once again saw my newborn baby girl lying in her little bed at the hospital. Where did time go?? She is still so little, gosh, and now school is in the morning..?? WHAT??
Emmy had said the other day that she wasn't scared to go, and I said honey that's great, you don't need to be scared, she said you know why I'm not scared mommy, I said why hun, she said b/c my teachers are gonna protect me, I thought whew..as I had to stop myself from crying as I am the protector, right? Her mom, and now she was going to be gone to this place 5 days a week and she has to learn to stand up for herself and not be shy, (as she can be) and then if need be call on her teachers..I just had such a hard time thinking I won't be the one to stand up for her, or help her, ya know.
So anyway back to bedtime, she went and I then went to my bed and cried like a baby..Ha..It was awful, I know the crazy hormones don't help!!
Jason came in from work about that time and said honey its okay and scooped me up with a big hug, boy that felt wonderful!
This morning I woke up first, got dressed and then woke up Emmy, I got her dressed, and then she had breakfast. Jason and I sat down on the couch with her to pray, and as Jason was praying she kissed our faces, mine being practically planted behind her back as I was trying not to cry outloud, (yes it was that bad) and then we got in the car. On the way I was explaining to her a few things like if she needs to potty she needs to let the teacher know by raising her hand, and then about if she has a boogy not to pick it, ask for a kleenex and how she should try all her food at breakfast and lunch, b/c she will get hungry, etc etc, I guess you can imagine, and then almost there she said Mom can we sing and dance to my song, I said you bet honey, so we jammed out to Taylor Swifts, You belong with me, and I watched my little girl in her car seat threw the rearview mirror bob her head and close her sweet little eyes as she sang with all her heart.
We got to school I stayed about 10 min. and then left, I was balling as soon as I turned the corner from her classroom and the director said oh honey, is she upset, I said no, she's great its me..She laughed and preceeded to hug me saying come here..
I then went to Walmart and picked up a few things, and of course had a few meltdowns in the store, but only b/c random friendly walmart workers know us and then asked about her first day, of course I cried with each and every employee that mentioned it..
Now its 12:30 and I'm making Gumbo for my family, I hope Emmy's okay, I hope Jason comes home soon and I hope to stay really busy until Jack gets here, this going to school thing is gonna break my heart everyday..